I can talk to alot of people but still feel lonely;

I guesse it's just cus none of em would ever really really know me
My name is anthony and all they know is part of me; relate it to how they'd only call me Tony
It's times like this that I realize how lonely I am
To alotta girls I'm just that complicated guy, nd they all like to talk nd criticize him
They know the what's but have no clue for the why's
They know why he laughed but don't know why he cried
Know how he lives, But don't know how he's already started to die
Iv had my heart broken nd built it back as steal
Was that a mistake? I'm just scared for it to happen again, cus ever since i had it broken iv questioned if love is even real
I start to get close to a girl, like her, the word love is said. that's when I get scared nd leave
That's how iv unintentionally fcked up in relationships nd now it's time for payback, A loan is what I need.
It's like the word love, in it anymore I'm sorry I just don't believe
I go to bed roll over nd there's no one to my left
I guesse all of this is due to a grudge, the one against love Iv stupidly kept