doesn't relate to the poem, nd some may laugh but that's a perfect example of dedication with constipation; he doesn't give a shit.

When I didn't like what I saw. I'd close my eyes...
Whispered to myself it wasn't happening; fed myself lies...
Physically; Scabs turn to scars, they heal...
Emotionally, they're permamnent, can kill...
Growing up I closed my eyes, it'd be over sooner or later...
Closed my eyes, didn't have to see any of it. It felt safer...
My hearts always been sensitive. So when she cried, I'd hide her...
Id close my eyes; it felt safer. It was dark, it wAs brighter...

Write a poem nd you can learn so much about yourself...
Even when tryna write a rhyming poem, there's so many words nd letters to choose from but its your poem so you get decide which one is most heartfelt...
can throw in a person place or thing, just have to relate it...
 just stick to a topic keep going, it won't be till you write the last line that you'll learn to love it or hate it... 
When writing a poem I just sit down nd let it all go...
Water my feelings seeds to let em grow...
Only to show a side of Tony even Tony doesn't know...
See It usually turns out to be a side of me not usually shown...
I don't really plan what imma write about, i just close my communication doors nd open my bodies vent...
It's not hard to come up with the ideas, my imagination works on em,I'm just the body, I just get them ready to be sent...
Read my poems nd you'll learn something about me but it's a trip, I'll learn more about myself then you will...
Poetry is my maginfying medication to certain feelings to once I was emotionally nd blindingly Ill...
It's a side of me I don't usually put out there for myself or others to see...
See I don't write poems, poems write me...

Got bored while waiting, remembered back when I was all into
"tagging". Haha this is what i do when i get bored on the back of
receipts

Always see people taking these, wasted my time but fck it:

Be honest; first name of the last person to text you?
Brook
Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with L or H?
On the cheek
Is the last person of the opposite sex you texted single?
Ya
Are you happy with life at the moment? 
Ya 
Have you had any beer this week?
Nope
You kissed someone last night, didn't you?
Haha nope
Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
She could be
Have you ever been caught skipping class?
Story of my sophmore nd junior life
What does your last sent text say?
"Ya bro, what time?"
Who makes you smile?
My moms
Would you kiss the last person who texted you, on the lips?
Ivan? Haha fck no! That's gaysss
Who's the biggest whore you know?
Haha!
Last person you were in the car with besides your family?
Erick nd Omar
Have you talked to the boy/girl you like today?
Don't so couldn't
Have you ever been out past curfew?
Ya
When's the last time you smoked a cigarette?
Never
Would your parents let you leave your house with the person you like?
Ya
Would you rather smoke weed or pop pills?
Neither
Who do you talk to the most about your problems?
Kidd in the mirror
Out of Pizza Hut, Taco Bell, Or Subway. Which one do you love the most?
Taco bell, fck that sounds pretty good
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
Could be unatractive
Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone?
Idk, idc...pain=post strength nd wisdom
This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Nope
Feel like talking to someone that you haven't in a while?
Ya
When was the last time you gave someone the finger, to who?
Suv that cut me off haha 
Did you ever lose a best friend?
Shouldve
Do you like road trips?
Ya, ride there sucks tho!
When was the last time you talked to your number one on your top friends?
Yesterday, kicked it at his house
What was the last thing you bought with your own money?
Movie ticket
What was the last thing you laughed really hard about?
HAha kid ate shit on his bike around the corner of my house while I was pulling into my driveway
Have you ever cried while in the shower?
Ya
Is there anyone you wanna be with right now?
Nope
What is in your pockets?
Wallet, receipt, gum. 
What was the last movie you watched, with who?
Sherlock holmes, Omar, big easy, nd Monica. Vanessa nd her friends wanted to watch avatar? Haha
When was the last time you went shopping?
Fridayy
Who are all your texts from?
Friends
Excited for anything?
Tnight nd everyother night before school wakes up 
What did you do today?
Woke up haha day just started
What are you listening to?
Collide by thundaz
Do you get along with your parents?
Most of the time
Nickname(s)?
Many but don't normally go by em
Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with T, P, S, K, M?
Don't trippp
Are you nice?
Could be
Do you have good grades?
Ya, senior yrs fck easy
How name people have you kissed in 2009?
Blahhh
Who sits next to you in language arts?
No one, empty desk to my left nd right.
Tell me one thing about you?
I'm a barber
Have you ever died your hair?
Haha don't remind me, 4th grade! ):

Amen! Haha if fckn Westminster high were to be burried nd watered,
nothing would grow.

This is all happening to fast! I can't deal with it all at this pace...
Life feels like a marathon nd I'm loosing the race...
People say shit like this nd It's been said that misery loves company...
Ones down nd needs help, they then expect for everyone to stop nd help; their problem is the chain nd ball on their leg. They wanna be free...
It doesn't make sense, don't get why they'd expect it...
Cus When tryna control time; it only gets hectic...
Everyones got their own problem that individually needs to be dealt with...
Your no where near being more of
importance of another,your no where near great...
There's only one reasonable thing to go by, it's called Fate...
Cus Truth Is no one really cares...
Nd Time is an ignorant bitch that Can't be modified.She may glance but she never stareS...
So No matter the size of your problem, no matter the weight...
This worlds time; for no one,  For nothing; It doesn't wait...

Check out this video on YouTube:
jay z pretty much says Ll who?! Haha thought it was a pretty sick free dropped
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HewhbG-pxjA&feature=youtube_gdata


Sent from my iPhone

Yaaaah (: haha
imagine boredumbb having it's own book n all?

This girl; when in a relationship she's More in love with the idea of it then actually being in it; love...
 Taking anything decent she can get but still have hope for the future nd that someone real will come...
Give her a list of names, which ones would you sleep with? Shell be like eww none!...
 only my bf! Haha Bitch please, we asked the truth, corrected it; the right answer was all the above!...
 It's a trip, she spends more time promoting love than actually being in it...
Nd when shes not in a relationship, she's feening it...
She's on a "break" With her bf nd for the night, for you, she fell...
She's real good at what she does, keep things from her "everything" She does it real well...
 shell give it up as long as you promise to not do it, tell
 man I didn't understand but now I get it...
She's Got that feeling nd she can't help it...
Weve all seen the type, they call it desperate...

imagine boredumbb gone bigg?! Haha

Heading for 2010; a new year, it's almost Christmas...
So for 2009 nd when I look back at where I stood; I left this:


My name is TONE e nd i usually write poetry when I'm down to help me get by
I hate feeling low so I turn my heart into wings, attach em to my pencil nd fly
The last line to a poem is the destination, the sky
I'm just the type thts better at expressing through writing then talking; wonder why?
Its cus I'm DUMB; I'm unable to speak because of hereditary deafness...
I don't take others prior perspectives, I create my own. My feelings wall died and left this...
An imagination nd claritY, the ability to see things as they really are..
 I can now distinguish left from right, color from color, etc, what's close nd what's still far...
I write outta BOREDOM which is The feeling of being bored of something tedious...
The way people usually see the world is tedious, they look hungry so I'm feeding em this...
People used to laugh at my writing nd call it DUMB...
I always said I eat the feedback whether it taste good or not so i named my shit BOREDUMBB...
Or they'd read it nd say out of all the poems they read, mine was the DUMBEST...
Once again I ate it, renamed my shit the dumBEST!!!
The goal was to BEST the negtive comment...
So keep em coming, I appreciate em; want it...
TONE is part of my name nd it means the quality of ones voice...
So For those who once doubted; I decided to turn up the volume so you could feel it, the noise!!!...

don't know me at all? Change tht, say hi to a Kidd!

It's been said that all people die but not all actually live...
Nd it's true, if you don't use what was naturally given; all youll do is wonder what if...
We all have something, something to this world to give...
But it's not always shown...
We all have some typa seed, but not all are actually fertalized nd grown...
Usually it's cus were scared,scared that it'll grow crooked nd ugly...
Truth is it's cus were insecure nd scared to be critisized negatively...
Its a shame, we should ask ourselves; what are we good at nd what that could grow to be...
Nd Imagine what it could become...
See, I wanna be someone instead of one of some...
I wanna be him...
Instead of whom what coulda been...
I don't wanna wonder what if nd regret...
I wanna make memories; the type you can't forget
I wanna get somewhere because of where I'm from
Nd be proud of the flower, that the seed has become
Cus truth is Before we take our last breath nd its all said nd done...
Everyone could nd should have a chance to be something; someone...

I disagree, not all guys:

I went back nd read all of the things I've written on here...
 went over a couple comments; there's something I wanna make clear...
It's easier to write when your down then when happy...
So that's when I usually do but that's only one side of me...
I laugh more then i cry...
Nd it usually isn't that hard to get by...
I'm just a average kid going through average things...
Taking life acceptingly nd agreeing to what it brings...
My blog nd poems Is only one side of me...
It may seem that I'm some emo typa guy when I write but haha naw I actually live happily...
Guys may read nd callthis typa shit homo or soft, They ain't with it...
Call it what you want, there's that other side to you to, difference is I'm man enough to swallow my pride nd admit it...
We all have another part to us we hide...
My blogs sentimental poems is mine, its that other side...
It's just that side of me I usually don't show...
It's the other part to the kid; Tony, the other Side to him you don't know...

Improvise to me means work with what you got...
 nd at times I ain't got alot...
But still I've learned to deal with it...
My lifes a bitch nd Imma be the best to ever hit it...

FOUL:

I learned you have to make peace with the past...
It's necessary to make the future last...
I hated to admit it but I didn't  wanna always wonder what if...
So I went back nd decided to get it all off my chest nd admit it... 
confessed it all to see if anything happened, Nothing did nd now i feel alot better... 
 what if is now what did; nd the past, it's  now easier to forget her...
I'm glad i can say I gave it a shot instead of always wonder what if; this feels better..
hearts only have one hand, therefore It needs to drop the past to now grip a future... 
I had a disease that only going back to the past could cure... 
 I was sick, couldnt commit to another girl before cus i always asked myself what if nd wondered if there was a chance we'd end up back tgether...
Learned it was pointless in the process  of making peace with the past...
It was a trip, I made peace with the past, gave it only couple of days nd met someone special real fast...
my future,I think I met her...
Nd if she were to start love me; I can finally let her<333...

I can never watch this movie too many times, watched it for the who knows how many times tday... No doubt, Deff one of the favorites.

THANK YOUU!!!

It's okay to hide your emotions but don't bury em...
Do it nd Regrets; you'd only be blooming em...
Your emotions, Theylle come back nd haunt you...
 you burried em under the soil from your words full of shit that weren't true...
You kept it all in; watered em with tears you didnt cry,they then grew roots... 
Bury em up, take em back, nd pick em like flowers; trust me, you'll want to...
Too late; Sorry, you can't dude...
You decided to bury your emotions, made em worse; as you can see, they didn't go away, they only grew...

Dear anonymous,,,
I don't know who you are or what your going through so i'm not sure what to write on this...
Imma assume your a girl, cus if not that'd be homo...
I write for females, keep it slow mo...
You deff left a comment on the page so something back to you; I owe it...
If it's a guy that may have broke your heart. Don’t try nd be irreplaceable;cus if you can’t be replaced, you can’t be promoted...
He may be gone, but fck it Be better;
be that girl who left a memory nd He could never forget her...
We all got types of vents to release stress but choose yours with care, like me; poetry, it's my positive addiction...
If it's the tAlk about you; dont give in. Its what thy want, give em no attention!...
If it's friends; only a couple people in life meet someone that gives em true love nd affection...
Nd for the Others like me; can't trust anyone besides the man in the water, your reflection...
If it's parents; Sometimes they just don't understand...
You needa just accept it,maybe they didn't live through what we are so they just cant...
If it's family; we had no choice to which be born in. At some point in life we all had the same father...
I'm tryna say to trust in god or if you don't, trust just in hope; it'll get you farther...
There's things you gotta learn to accept...
Cus Lifes a fckn ignorant nd stubborn man, any suggestion of change; he'll always reject...
Look idk who you are or what your going through... 
I just hope you feel the concept nd I wrote this for you...
Whatever the problem is, don't run from it. Go to it nd catch it; keep it captured...
Whether we like it or not mrs. Experience is a bitch, she gives you the test first nd the lessons;she gives em after...

I'll never even think to bother you cus I know I'm not deserving of your friendship...
I may have said many I hate yous nd etc outta mistake but when I said I cared nd loved; I meant it...
I'm not even mad cus you left. levaving me was the best thing you ever did for me... 
It wasn't till then I started to question what the fck have I become, what's happened to Tony?...
My loss of your presence has only changed me for the better...
If only I woulda been who I am tday back then when we were friends; tgether...
I don't believe in second chances...
So for one; won't ask it...
Just want you to know that I wouldn't be the man I am tday if it weren't for you...
 All the bad things you said about me, i learned to accept; they were true...
For the realization to make me a better man; i thank you...
Nd I may not deserve one but you do
So if you ever need a friend; call me...
Believe it or not; I miss you, iv changed, really, I'm sorry...

Some of my dayy: