Explenation: computor crashed nd haven't had access to the Internet but figured out how to post on my phone so let the boredumbb continue (: haha here are some things I would have posted before if my computor would have worked; sorry for th randomness in order just throwing it all up:
Every night I say a prayer...
Don't know if the man up top will ever hear it or if it'll just be left in the air...
Thats just one of the many life's unkowns...
Nd because of em; wonder, it grows...
The biggest unkown is the future which will never be visible to man...
So of it, I don't try to understand that I may believe, I believe that ill understand...
I know life isn't gunna always be what I want it to be...
So I take life as it is; nd as it comes to me...
Its 1:38 am nd cant go to sleep. Rolled back nd forth Nd while fustratingly trying to keep my eyes closed I was able to express how I was feelig earlier today. I used to be the type who held everthing bottled up then just blow up. I later on realized it only hurt me in the long run. I learned I'm better off accepting what I feel as it comes to me as well as anything else in life. This poem kinda explains it, it's basically the kinda new me with the new way of thinking talking to the old me not knowing how I was affecting myself.just thinking Maybe someone else could relate cus we see it everyday at school. Got people with the biggest fake smile on at school to cover up what their really feeling inside. Act like they got everything but deep down missing so much. They just gotta be their selves, who the fck is anyone else to judge, no one else could feel what you do or know what it's like to go through what your going through.I unfortunately had to experience it all to learn this, it's all good tho; like the bro bro Jo jo's tat; what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger:
If your happy; laugh. Prefferably alot...
If your sad;same thing, cry, fck it,why not?...
See emotions gotta be felt to be delt with...
The more you hide a problem, the less of a possibility you'll be able to later help it...
Don't wanna swallow your pride?...
so your unmanly emotions you decide to hide?...
But cmon man even Tyson at some point in life cried...
Nd just cus of that to be a champ he wasn't ever denied...
Imagine taking a hard right from him;...
You gotta allow yourself to fall so far that the only way is back up again...
That's when you dig deep into yourself nd find out where strength has been hiding in...
Iv heard a champion is someone who gets up when he can't...
So Make your sobs nd yells motivation, go ahead for yourself cry; chant...
Don't laugh to keep yourself from crying...
Your disrespecting your emotions nd to yourself, you'd just be lying...
Anxiety and want to cry is like an internal growing tumor...
If left unnatended, sergury is then needed and it's the opposite of humor...
To hold back tears will then be impossible nd you'll wish you delt with it before; sooner...
It's better to cry nd let it all out, it's just what's right...
Don't cry on the inside, those tears; they're impossible to wipe...
Time heals everything; give it time; your problems will eventually die...
Be true to the man in the mirror;Tears, keep em externall; they'll eventually dRy...
Do yourself a favor, Let it all out, go ahead; it's okay;cry...
2 comments:
im going through so many things in my life right now, and when i wake up every morning i put everything in the back of my head and pretend that nothings wrong. i go through my day with a smile on my face and its almost physically painful. i was in bed about to go to sleep but i decided to check your blog to see if you had any new poems that usually motivate me to stay strong. i read the first couple of poems and i thought they were inspiring. then i finished reading your last poem...
and i started crying and crying and crying. it was the first time i cried since everything had happened to me. my eyes got red and my pillow got soked. until eventually i cried myself to sleep. i cant even explain how i felt in the morning. i had been keeping it bottled up for so long that it was just the greatest relief. i went to school not pretending to feel anything but what i really felt. i didnt fake a smile. it was a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. and i have you to thank for that. i know you wrote the poem based on what you were feeling and probably not intending to help someone out. but it was exactly what i needed, and i feel like i can finally breathe. i realized that it iss okay to cry. you dont know who i am so idk why you would care but thanks if you took the time to read this. i sincerly hope that whatever it is your going through works out. thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings, and dont ever stop what you do tony.
for so long i've left everything inside only to hide what should be showed.. your an inspration to all
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